I'm not sure yet... my stuff is here, his stuff is here... I have my own bathroom, closet, side of the bed... and yet, it doesn't feel like home... not yet anyway.. at least I hope there's a yet there somewhere... I don't know... I knew it wasn't going to be all cupcakes and flowers moving in, but it seems like there's been a lot more adjusting to do and I seem to be doing the brunt of it. Bran seems to take some things I say lately more serious than he should, and other things I say not seriously enough, and because I know him, how he acts and reacts to things, I end up being the one walking on eggshells even when I know he's in the wrong. I give him his space because I don't want to be too clingy and he gets upset at me for not being around... I spend a lot of time with him and one little thing I say (usually sarcastic and not serious at all) pisses him off and we end up sitting next to each other in silence... Like today. A Shrek movie i had not seen before came on T.V. and I paused it so I could watch from the beggining after I finished the dishes. I told Bran to rewind it because I was almost done and he says he doesn't want to watch it because there are witches in it. I know Bran feels strongly about anything involving witchcraft, but these are cartoon "wicked witch of the wests" in multiple in a version of one of our favorite movie franchises... I explained this to him and now he thinks I'm calling him a hypocrite.. which it kind-of seems like he is being... And I was really looking forward to watching it... He said if I wanted to watch Shrek whatever # it was, then he would go into the other room, so I said nevermind, but I was really disappointed, and me being disappointed doesn't make him want to make me happy, it just pisses him off... So I walked out of the room and am now sitting here alone in the bedroom wishing I could be with him. He's watching hockey or something and not even caring what I happen to be thinking or feeling, which I was expecting. The silence won't end until I break it... which is also kind of disappointing... Sometimes all a woman really wants is someone who will put forth an effort for her happiness... someone who would fight for her love... sometimes I wish I had that...
Don't you worry your pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that shine and life makes Love work hard...
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